By Yong Soo Li

After I entered Bishan MRT station, I headed for the lift to go down to the platform. I was a little deep in thought. Suddenly, an elderly lady approached me for direction to the train heading to Orchard MRT station, the opposite direction that I was going. She was in a hurry. I stopped for a few seconds to get my bearing. A wall separates the two platforms at this station. I offered to bring her there.

I led her down the stairs to the wrong platform, then went up with her in the lift to where she approached me. She kept asking impatiently, “You know the way or not? You look like you don’t know leh!” In my broken Mandarin, I tried to assure her I knew the way and to give me a few moments to look for the correct escalator for her. By then I myself was running a little late, my bad leg aching a little and my impatient stranger had lost all confidence in me. She shrugged me off, annoyed, “Ai ya you don’t know the way la, you!” She headed for the security personnel instead (which she should have in the first place). No “thank you for trying” at least?

I went off to my platform, annoyed at being doubted at. Even slightly hurt! I was trying my best to help her! Then I thought, “What about when I doubt God time and again?” This stranger had reason to complain since I made a mistake. But God makes no mistakes and wills only good for me. I panic and worry easily. My biggest problem is my lack of confidence in God, the Creator and Almighty. When I face trouble, I tend to question His love, wisdom or goodness. Yet He is slow to anger and forgiving.

“Lord, help me to choose to trust you and not doubt You.”